I
just wanted to share an interesting reading that happened over the
weekend. While all readings are very interesting & exciting and
often bring peace & joy to the client & myself, some of them ,
like this one, just stand out to me. I can't remember every detail of
how this went because if you have ever met me, you know, I forget most
of what comes through during a reading as soon as it is out of my
mouth-they are not my thoughts-so they are gone instantly, but here's
what I do remember of this reading.
I went to West
Virginia to do a group session. I only knew the host and 2 attendees of
the group. I did my normal intro to the group of about 15 people. A
very nice older man came through to chat with his wife and
granddaughter, then a mother in law, a friend, etc... as we had the
chance to connect various people around the room with their loved ones.
We passed the tissues around (which is how it normally goes at a group)
when suddenly I had a very bad pain in my head. I have never felt a
headache that bad. I also felt a squeezing pressure in my head with the
pain. I explained the feeling & that it came with a man who
probably passed young- in his 20s or 30s. He passed with trauma to his
head. An older lady from the corner of the room said "I think that's
for me", her voice quivering as tears welled her in eyes. I asked if
she had a son who passed several years ago with head trauma at this
age...she said "yes". I can't remember the "small talk" but he started
with little comments and words to validate his identity...all of which
she nodded and agreed made sense to her. I then said "I feel like his
death was an accident, not medical related", to which she replied an
astounding "YES"! She then asked "What can you tell me about his
death?" I told her that he said it was an accident but someone was
keeping a secret. I saw a group of people around him, something
happened, they all ran, someone knew & either didn't try to help or
didn't tell anyone something important that they knew. She then
explained to me that he had been shot in the head. The police told her
he used his own gun & he accidentally shot himself in the head. I
then told her, "He's saying it didn't happen that way." She immediately
sighed loud enough for the entire room to hear. She then said, the
police told me he was getting the gun out to show his friends when the
gun went off and he accidentally shot himself. She said he had been a
hunter and grew up around guns his entire life, so it wasn't strange
that he got the gun out to show friends. I then asked her (I almost
didn't ask this because I couldn't believe he was saying what I thought I
heard next).....I ask "Was there someone with him at the time named
Scott ?" She began crying & shook her head yes..she could barely
speak to answer and I was getting filled with emotion too (something I
rarely do at a reading). I said...Scott did it. He says he got the gun
out to show his friends, Scott was handling it & somehow it went
off and shot him-he died almost instantly and felt no pain. It was an
accident, no doubt about it, but Scott never admitted that he did it.
Her voice grew much stronger now and louder, she was no longer sobbing
but almost smiling as she said "I KNEW IT! I CONFRONTED SCOTT & HIS
WIFE SEVERAL YEARS AGO....BUT HE STILL DENIED IT, I KNEW IT WAS AN
ACCIDENT, BUT I ALSO KNEW MY SON DIDN'T SHOOT HIMSELF". The entire
group gasped at this point, but aside from that gasp, the other
attendees said nothing & the room was completely quiet. I told her
that she was absolutely right & that he clearly told me this Scott
guy had murdered him, but by complete & total accident. He didn't
want her to pursue this in any way...he just wanted her to have peace
again knowing what really happened & that she was right all along.
We continued for a few moments with other family members in the room.
When the group session ended, she came up to me and hugged me so tight
it brought tears to my eyes. She explained that this has haunted her
for over 25 years. She hasn't had true peace in her life since the day
she lost her son because she knew he couldn't have done it himself. He
had an injury to the hand the police said he shot himself with earlier
in his life, that left it so he couldn't move it a certain way- there
was no way he could have shot himself in the manner the police told
her. She cried & said "I will finally be able to sleep at night and
enjoy my life, thank you so much...you'll never know what this meant to
me, it changed my life". While I may never truly understand the impact
this had on this lady. I do know that the look of calm & peace in
her eyes when she left was so overwhelming it took my breath away. I
know now for certain that this is what I'm supposed to do with my life.
I don't feel I deserve that kind of credit, as I am just the
messenger..repeating what I hear. It was the connection & love
between her and her son that allowed me to repeat his words that night,
but I LOVED being their interpreter!
